Ojsegun stories

My mind is an ever busy market, Where goods and loads are kept, I feel like I'm a living corpse in a casket. I've broken a lot of people's expectations, I was led into a wrong occupation, Led into it with low orientation. I couldn't blow against the wind, My boat couldn't pass through the stormy seas, I saw the best was passing through it by any means. I hear noise any time I meditate, I'm confused I can't even concentrate, No one understands me that why I hardly communicate. My thoughts are always vast, I plan and commit crime so fast, I feel like I'm always the last. I'm such a failure, Who is in love with pleasure, And hates to undergo the pressure. I feel pains in my brain, A voice tells me I may go insane, I feel I've lost my success train. My whole life sucks, While that of others I mock, I feel my demons are already unlocked. My whole body aches, As my body shakes, All my laughs are fake. BECAUSE OF THE PAINS IN MY BRAIN Ojsegun

Can I change?  This question always rings in my thought  Whenever I do something wrong Can I change from my wrong  It keeps killing me everyday I keep committing evil as often as I breathe That's why I say I'm stuck in the web of sin When I look at how I'm been chained  I ask, can I be ever set free?  Seems my cup would soon get filled  With sorrow and pains Hatred along with shame I'm not alright  I'm dying inside I fear that day when I'll close my eyes to sleep Just to open it and see my soul walking  Sins flows from my veins to my brain  Where it shuts down my conscience  And leads me to continue my evil Then it leaves me to siren on the evil I do Poem from a bleeding heart                ©Ojsegun

     I'm an accursed being  Trapped in the web of sin Looking for someone to set me free I wish all the evils I've done is a dream Wish I was good for real Wish I was holy to confidently scream My evil deeds are not obvious  But to do evil, I'm always anxious  To commit sin, I'm fast and furious.           Ojsegun